A blend of two conversations, the edited portion of Jason's chat with Doug Lain for Diet Soap, in which Jason and Doug discuss paranoid awareness, the occult path, social awareness versus self-awareness, why revolutions never work, surrendering to a fucked-up world, our natural state as fucked up humans, Jason’s encounter with John De Ruiter and how his teachings have filtered down into SWEDA, SWEDA as a training ground for leaders (but *not* a revolutionary movement). For the second part, Jason and Ross continue their discussion on porn addiction and sexual energy, porn as a way to avoid intimacy, of hardening and closing, how misuse of sex can destroy us, a word on Jason’s dark side and his dandy brother Sebastian, the SWEDA arrangement of several males grouped around a single female, the wounded anima, SWEDA as The Crucible, the sustained discomfort of alchemical relationships, revealing unconscious matter before we have integrated it, the art of making love without putting our hands on the life force vs. sex as self-medication.