A blend of two conversations, the edited portion of Jason's chat with Doug Lain for Diet Soap, in which Jason and Doug discuss paranoid awareness, the occult path, social awareness versus self-awareness, why revolutions never work, surrendering to a fucked-up world, our natural state as fucked up humans, Jason’s encounter with John De Ruiter and how his teachings have filtered down into SWEDA, SWEDA as a training ground for leaders (but *not* a revolutionary movement). For the second part, Jason and Ross continue their discussion on porn addiction and sexual energy, porn as a way to avoid intimacy, of hardening and closing, how misuse of sex can destroy us, a word on Jason’s dark side and his dandy brother Sebastian, the SWEDA arrangement of several males grouped around a single female, the wounded anima, SWEDA as The Crucible, the sustained discomfort of alchemical relationships, revealing unconscious matter before we have integrated it, the art of making love without putting our hands on the life force vs. sex as self-medication.

Return of Ross to discuss with Jason Ross' marijuana habit and his past addiction to Internet porn; the grid, the real matrix: how our consciousness is seeded with imagery and our life force is siphoned off, metaphysical conception, how masturbation creates thought forms, watching sex scenes with our parents, how sexual distortion becomes a comfort zone, the danger of putting our hands on our sexuality, the body's knowing, the transformative potential of sex in myths, how disowned sexuality breeds monsters, morality vs. energetic fact, religious doctrines, social control, the impossibility of sex without intimacy, Jason's sexually liberal upbringing, Freud, the Inquisition, pedophilia, Marquis de Sade, teen sex, this one's got it all ~ a podcast for our times! (With special contribution from Ross' alchemical other, Sophie).

Sean and Jason discuss Jason's shamanic apprenticeship in Guatemala, the works of Carlos Castaneda and how well they matched up with the reality, shamans as garbage-collectors, the shittiest job in the universe, a never-ending surrender, shaman as servant to community, mystery as the true nature of everything, the lines of the world, pitting the sorcerer's view against consensus view, the recapitulation, the Eagle, the ultimate goal-orientation of the sorcerer's path, JDR and simplicity, allowing the shallow to be shallow, the deep to be deep, the limitations of words, SWEDA as a home for the lost and frustrated, Sean losing his religion, praying to the Universe, acceptance of regret, fucking up for a reason, the pitfalls of being a psychedelic shaman and intentional magik, the entheogenic movement and false awakenings, Jason's red pill experience, Sean's first and last LSD trip, and back to SWEDA and generational patterns, and finally, Sean's Grammy-nominated performance of "Ain't No Thing Like a Chicken Wing."

Cafe chat between Jason and Brandon, complete with background ambience and street noise: why everybody wants to be a somebody, the trap of "cosmic purpose" as another way to be somebody, becoming a "vessel for truth" (and getting to be somebody), becoming a smaller somebody at SWEDA, letting go of what we think is ours, the cloud of unknowing, the option of coming out of what we know to be true in order to have more for our persons, being valued in the eyes of others, Brandon's superiority-inferiority complex, honesty and dishonesty, "me" in quotation marks, Brandon growing up short, the safety and comfort of taking on leader roles, celebrity as the supreme comfort zone, the so-called "spiritual path," social drives vs. "spiritual" drives, Brandon, protector of the forest, finding Paradise in the ugliness of "Now."

Jason chats with Lemnos Swedite Ross about being stuck in the Now, using the self as a tool in one's arsenal, necessity and enjoyment, the torch of intuition, astrology as a creative tool, musical expression as a means to connect right and left sides of the brain, becoming a vessel, planet theater, SWEDA as a microcosm of life, precedents found in the natural world, the autistic spectrum, living by lies, deformity of social conditioning, the ways in which we hide, constructed identity and government, the correspondence between unconscious and past, time as a non-linear phenomena, the illusion of personal evolution.

Chat with Jason and new SWEDA-member Shane, begins with general discussion on what sorcery now means to Jason, post John De Ruiter, sorcery vs. surrender, interpreting daily events as dreams, alchemy of the psyche, more on mythic narratives, Hollywood narratives and synchromysticism, "The Secret Life of Movies," what makes the difference between the schizophrenic and the shaman, movies and art as products of the dreaming mind of the collective, the artistic process and parallels with alchemy and the SWEDA method, learning to become transmuters, the anima and the male ego, the truth of mother-bondage and the myth of the Gorgon, the two types of momma's boys, the *real* "occult conspiracy" that rules this world.

WARNING: this podcast may seriously disturb mother-bonded minds.

Chat between Jason and recent SWEDA recruit Sam, on the structure of SWEDA and the original ARGO-SWEDA merge, the formation of new subgroups, the impossibility of defining a process still underway, the myth of Jason & the Argonauts and of Aeolus the wind god, the Captain's job, being a still center and aligning the sail to the wind; the dark side of SWEDA, the pros and cons of becoming a "movement," SWEDA and Fight Club, the ominous parallels with a religious cult, the dangers of trying to change the world, the art of being in what you know, end-times management and SWEDA's function within the Alternate Perceptions Community; moving on to Sam's problem with spontaneity, his love life or lack thereof, the need for security vs. the desire for deeper connection, Jason's Moroccan odyssey, the annihilating potential of alchemical love, living for truth regardless of personal satisfaction, the SWEDA plant, tending an unknown seed, future creative ARGO projects.

This is an intimate conversation between Jason and one of the original SWEDARGONAUTS, Al, about Al's experience of sexual abuse as a small child. It begins with a discussion about Jason's attempt to create the ideal occupation for himself, holding the ARGO together, time & money, the selfless life of the shaman, Al's journey from paranoia to paranoid awareness to SWEDA, from having no one to understand him to being surrounded by understanding, the way in which increased awareness leads to increased denial, the pattern of despair, giving in without giving up, the only path there is, the difference between examining the past and dwelling on the past, using death as an adviser, letting the past come to us, spontaneous recall, Al's childhood abuse, being triggered by a single phrase, a la "Manchurian Candidate," opening a channel to past traumas, getting past possible "screen memories."